Lack of sleep

Can something please go right today?
A very negative thought that popped into my head this morning.

Posterior try in died. Patient is sick and could not make it. Only 3 more weeks of clinic left.
Sigh.
Needing to swap clinic sessions. Not sure if it can happen.
Sigh.
Splint patient referred to endo clinic. When can I make that splint?
Sigh.

The day started off quite badly. Did not get enough sleep again due to the humid weather again. Was stressed out about this morning's appointment that did not happen. Was super tired from yesterday's exams. Brain malfunction, could not even converse properly today.

Rant.

Aside the bad things, some good things did happen today =)

Got my paedo work done and received good marks.
Yay!
Finished op tech work for pros, the mark for my temp post crown was pretty good.
Yay!
Finally trimmed my splint... can finally wear it tonight!
Yay!

And... this happened in the middle of the day that lifted my spirits a little.

He stopped in mid conversation just to say hi to me. Super cute.

I love little things that people do without realizing that can really make someone else's day. Giving up that extra 3 seconds to just ask "how are you?" - priceless.

I need sleep. Need to stop ranting. Need to organize study around extra dance training and performances. Looking forward to those performances.

Exams... *shiver*

Hui Hui ^^b

Dentistry and Dance

So many dance performances coming up.
Gulp.
Never knew they all came up near exam time.
Gulp.
#*#&^!@^%$#^%#@^&!^@#*$.

It's awesome that there will be more dancing, more performances, more rehearsals. However, there is only a limited amount of time in life! This means giving up something else in the mean time- my teeth studies! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEK.

Officially freaking out.

Can't pull out of dance now, already committed. It just always seemed like it was "Bah... at the end of the year, should be nice and spread... just at the end of the year!"

Not.

EEEEEEEEEEEEE... don't know what to do anymore. Will stop writing and go study. Need to study whenever I have time now! GAH!

Hui Hui ^^b

U

... I just can't stop thinking bout chu girl ...
Addicted to U by Super Junior.
Very old song.
Awesome nonetheless.
Yummy.

Hehe... yes, latest obsession in terms of music. Even though I'm not too keen on most of the dancing and the singers themselves, the song is quite nice and easy to listen to. I only understand a few of the Korean words and the English 1 liners... but... it is still music to my ears. =)

This issue has been on my mind for a while now, but it has just recently been worrying me more... and it is somewhat relevant to the title of this post, so might as well blurb it out now.

I hate growing up and losing faith in people.

Growing up is awesome- there is so much more room to grow, to explore, to experiment with, to make mistakes in, to accomplish things, to chase dreams...

Growing up is a such a pain- start to realize how much more complex and unpleasant the world can get, how superficial people can be, how materialistic many are, how cynicism accompanies growth a lot of the time, how so many problems are not addressed but swept under the carpet...

Growing up is a part of life- can't stop the aging process, can't help but experience those unpleasant things, not ideal to shunt away from those unpleasant things anyway, expectations come with this inevitable part of life, as does responsibilities...

Growing up. Growing. Grow.

I think the main part that is eating me inside is the way humans are. It is the fundamental trait of greed that gets even the best of us. It can be the hunger for anything- money, power, friendship, popularity, acceptance, appeal... the list goes on. It can be highly superficial, or it can be for genuine reasons.

Despite it all, it bugs me.

I'm sure I possess that trait too. I don't like it, but I'm sure I have it somewhere. I just wish it does not have to be so evident sometimes and that everyone can just interact without it. Everything will be much more pleasant, much less superficial, much more worthwhile spending time to understand.

Guess it is the fact that dentistry is taking away a lot of my time... so with whatever I have left, I would rather have real conversations, genuine understandings, sincere interactions.

Getting to know the real [U].

Hoping for more time during this part of the growing up process. Just a bit more.

Hui Hui ^^b

Quiet

No one at home tonight. Just for a while more I think. It's quite quiet. The door just banged again. Ben keeps forgetting things. Teehee. Liong is out too. Can't believe Ben was just in Adelaide today. Now he's back. Insane traveling skills. Liong was out the whole day too. Busy bees.

Interesting day today. Am still epically tired from the whole week of uni, dance and... lion dancing today!

Haven't been sleeping well because of the weather. Body does not tolerate heavy clouds and humid weather during the night. Body likes sunny, dry days. Summer = good sleep. Humid winter = can't sleep. This whole week... have no idea how I managed to treat patients properly from the lack of sleep. Adrenaline pulled me through probably. Awesome physiology saved my life.

Thoughts are not coherent at the moment. Too tired. Back to the interesting day. Made a decision to join lion dancing some time in the future, which I decided that that future day was to be today. Off I went on my jolly way to lion dancing training. Tiring, but fun. Legs and body were tired and a bit sore from dance yesterday... but I still tried my best. A lot of short time frame, high impact training today... slightly different from dancing. Tried to do high jumps, epic failed. Body just can't jump very high. No idea why. Centre of mass problem? Fat distribution? Anyway, I wish I could levitate =) ... even 75% would be awesome.

Understand lion dancing music more now. Very interesting. Played cymbals for a bit. FUN. Except nearly went deaf. Need to get some ear plugs for next time. If I ever have time to go for training again, that is. All in all, fun, new, exciting! Loved it.

Now it's back to studying. Did some productive work this morning. Not sure how much more I can do tonight though. Quite tired. Ate too much as well. Sigh.

Enjoying the quietness of the house. And Backstreet Boys playing in the background. I need some Michael Jackson to come on. Will download.

Legs are in fairly epic pain. Hammies tight. Must stretch it out tonight. Don't want awkward can't-walk-down-the-stairs type pain. Not fun.

Ahh... I love having a break and doing things at my own pace. Revitalize!

Hui Hui ^^b

Entering the 9th month

Can't believe it's already September. The year is nearing its end! How fast time flies when you're having fun... doing dentistry =)

I finally broke fast! Sunday was quite bad, smelling all the yummy food preparations by my housemates. Smelt so good. Then there was Ben crunching on an apple just outside. Those noises made me crave an apple so badly. Then there was Scott describing his awesome dinner and Kasia offering mints to everyone around the table on Monday. Monday was... quite epic fail, as I could not absorb anything in the morning, and in the afternoon... well, let us just say DMPT did not go too well. At least it was not a life and death situation where patients were involved.

My first indulgence breaking fast was a wildberry danish from Brumby's. My good old employer. Yum. I don't usually life puff pastry... but that danish tasted orgasmic. Soooo good. Then Jane and I got pasta at Ti Amo, and then I got a Magnum ice cream. Oh, the joys of eating! I appreciated everything I ate last night for dinner, it felt so good to be able to eat again! It really is not fun to be without food.

We take it for granted way too much.

Glad that I did it again this year with just water as my sustenance. Got quite sick of drinking water after Sunday, even though it is my all time favourite drink. Teehee. Glorious food, I appreciate you!

Today was back to normal... though I think there was some sort of muscle wastage over the 40 hours of no food intake. I went for my usual jog this morning... did the usual circuit,

and nearly died.

I could not believe how hard it felt! Like nothing I have ever felt before! Insane in the membrane! I pushed on and did finish my usual circuit in the usual fashion. Sigh. Can 40 hours really waste muscle away like that? I'm intrigued and scared.

Today, I went to the new science library at campus. O M G. AMAZING. It actually makes studying seem like a past time. The furniture was very IKEA-ed up, with large flat screen computers, powerpoint study booths, scanning white boards with computer connections... a panel that tells you which floor has which exact free computer.

Intensely epic. I loves it. Will study there in study break.

Ahhh... discoveries of the day. To finish it off, I walked home in pouring rain. Felt good =) ... not so good when I felt really cold though. Teehee... I love walking in the rain.

Hui Hui ^^b